Opss.. I did it again

I hit our car again.. damn!

It happened when I park the car and hit the divider. Not a minor scratch but HUGE, ok! And its a brand new car.

To be honest, this is the third time actually and the first time he let it go, the second time I didn't tell him, so he assumed his fault ( because he hit our gate after the incident, lucky me ) .

I'm planning to tell him later at night but my son break it during dinner time.

"Mum scratch the car again , "

"Finish your food and stop talking , "

"I say, mum scratch the car again , "

I gave a look to him. You little kid, can't u just let mummy handle this thing?

"So, you hit the car again , how was it ? "

"Its kind a big scratch this time . You're not going to cut my allowance, don't you, "

"We'll see the damage first, "

Did I get the spanking? I don't know. I never get spank for spending or damaging stuff. Lucky me? I'm not sure.

Question: If this incident happen to you, will your HOH spank you?

Just curious to know. Thank you.

Fascinating Womanhood

How many of you own and read this book? I was introduced to this book during my first year in TTWD but i refused to buy. Then 2 years later somebody gave me a free e book of The Secret of Fascinating Womanhood. After reading it, I know what missing in our life . It was me, I tried to change my husband to become other person. Immediately, I place an order for the book and start to read.

I"m not good in writing but all I can say is this book helps me to understand why I should submit to my husband, what is my role as a wife and mother and why I should trust my husband decision.

If I found myself struggling to submit my husband, I will read this book again. It covers every aspect in this life. TTWD is not enough for me to be a better wife and with the combination with Fascinating Womanhood, it just perfect. I'm still reading this book now .

If anyone want to buy this book, they can get at Amazon. Just type Fascinating Womanhood by Helen Andelin.

What to do in July

I had few things to do next month ( notes for myself)

1. Recycling project with my 6 year old son on the first Saturday

2. Sending entry for San Remo's contest ( hope to win something )

3. One week road trip

4. Husband's birthday- what should I get for him?

5. Mum's birthday

6. Shopping with mum?


How you surprise your husband during his birthday? Can we give them a birthday spanking? Or give them a spanking coupon so they can redeem it?

Another week without spanking

This is the worse week; no spanking, no shopping and everyone in the house is sick.

Dis I say no spanking? Yes.....

He suggested me to go shopping by my myself today, get a new n quality shoes and no more spending on clothes! Ok, I'll get it. You'll see, even though I was born as shopaholic, I still consider myself as a bargain hunter. My husband will pick up high quality, branded and expensive stuff but his wife prefer something good but less than that. That's why I ended up bought 3 pairs of shoes early this year and it didn't work well with my feet.

"You're going to get Scholl today,

"But its too expensive, I can get 3 pairs with that price, "

"I want you to get a quality and comfy shoes , "

"Hem...

"Ok, I give you another hundred"

"Ok set , "

:))

I loved my life, and I loved my husband too :)

I don't get spank for spending and I don't wish for it. Of course we had rules on spending, a very simple one; just let him know if I want to use a credit card. I repeated, let him know, not asking a permission. But I know my limits, I don't want my husband ended up in bad debts.

Ok ladies... lets go shopping

I'm the boss in the house

I just finished cooking for dinner, kids were fighting on something and their daddy was resting on the bed.

I just ignored, ok? I sit in front of my netbook, and start FBing. Suddenly, my husband ask me to switch off.

"No way, I'm done cooking , "

"Switch the netbook, now! "

"Bossy ! "

I leave my netbook, and went upstairs. He followed me.

"You just love being bossy, don't you? "I asked him.

"Yes, because I'm the boss in this house, "

I sat on his lap.

"I know why you bossy with me. Lets have a date tonite, "

"Are you feeling better now?

"So-so. I try to slow down today and if it didn't get any better, may be I'll take gas at clinic tomorrow? "

I got asthma attack early this week. It comes once in a blue moon. I haven't got any spanking for a week, just a playful swat which I like it. He knows when I'm in this condition, I had to slow down and more resting.

Ok, time to get to bed. Have a good day everyone :)

Preemptive spanking

I was away last week for family vacation. Almost lost contact with outside world as Vietnam block FB. Miss those chit chat n gossiping with girlfriends.

Before we leave, I got reminder/preemptive spanking from my husband. He told me, if I cross the line during the trip, I'll get 40 strokes with cane for each crime I summit . Is he serious? I normally got 30 for each mistakes and the maximum I can take the cane probably 70 strokes? Is that possible to avoid this?

Being four years in DD marriage, and we been traveled all over the world; France, Germany, Hong Kong, States, Canada etc and I tell you, its almost impossible for me to stay calm if we lost. I provoked him, pouting, make a scene blablablabla.. just name it.And guess...

Five days in Ho Chi Minh, I stay out from trouble! I guess the shopping therapy helps me a lot :)) . I'd surprised with myself, and so him. If you read my previous entry, we had an issue before we leave for holiday. I guess this vacation bring us back together in a right track.

My Loving Domestic Discipline Contract

I was browsing my old pen drive and found this. I might copy from somebody blog n change a little bit to suite myself. Credit to the original writer, I'm sorry I couldn't remember her. May be from C's correction blog, I had to check later.


This contract was written down somewhere in 2007, and the LDD term was used during that time. LDD- Loving Domestic Discipline .

My LDD Contract:

Husband, in helping me to maintain total respect, obedience, honesty and submission I have drafted up this contract between us:

1) I will never hold up the disciplinary process by arguing the justification of my punishment spankings. Whether just/unjust I will receive and graciously accept.

2) I will never procrastinate and try and stall the disciplinary process.

3) I will never refuse the disciplinary process, even I’m sleepy, tired or in period time.--> if i sleep, don't ever bother to wake me up because i won't hear you

4) I will never brat you into spanking me.

5) I will never remind you to punish me if you so happen to forget. (But will journal this forgetfulness and my feelings associated with it.)--> I'm so glad no to remind you

6) I will never cover up my bottom with my hands or buck with my feet to try and stop the flow of your loving correction.--> I ran... hahahhahahha

7) I will never plead for you to stop spanking me; tell you how much it hurts, or how sorry I am in the hope of you stopping - unless you request it I won't say anything at all.

8) I will be respectful at all times during the disciplinary process – if it really hurts I will bite my lip, or hold a pillow to my face. After all "Discipline is meant to hurt, but never harm." -> don't spank my thigh, it hurts like a hell

9) I will always keep my position during spanking. -> That impossible honey

10) I will always apologize to you before my discipline.

11) I will always thank you after my discipline.

12) I will always describe what I have learnt after my discipline and I will listen to your leadership and advice in how to resolve my bad behavior. I will offer you strategies and we will discuss how I will try to maintain my desired behavior.

13) I will always keep my journal up to date – where I will concentrate on the 3 D’s (Disobedience, Disrespect, and Dishonesty), confess everything I did on that day and also record my punishment spankings. --> I'm too busy with kids, FBing, chatting with girlfriends, i don't have a time to write any journal

14) I will always present you with my journal every night before 9.00 P.M so you will have enough time to read and prepared forgiving punishment spanking to me.--> I'm so busy clean up the kitchen during this time

15) If I feel compulsion to engage in my most serious and dangerous offence then I will ALWAYS talk with you on the phone/YM that I can feel the full benefit of your support.--> no FB account during that time?

I hope you found my tone respectful and not demanding. I’m trying SO hard to be a good wife. --> you just said I'm demanding this week.

With love always,
Angelin




So that was me four years ago, who just discover DD and expect everything to be perfect like in contract. The reality is... keep on spanking and spanking until we learn :))

Am I demanding? Part 2

I couldn't finish this entry yesterday as he was home when i type the last sentence. He know i had a blog, but he didn't know I blogging about him. Sometimes, thing are better left unsaid, especially when it comes about his family.

Let's continue the talk.

"Do you know how much we spend every months?

"I don't know. It's your job to handle the financial. All I have to do is asking :)) "

"But you're asking too much , "

'Darling, I won't push you into something that you couldn't afford , if you can't granted my wish, please give me another option such as we can make small cabinet for the kitchen which only cost around 1k..( your mum spend 2.8K for the party last month and you didn't say any words about it )

Ok.. now I'm comparing with my MIL. This is not so good, I hope he won't read this entry or it gonna be WWIII.

I'm sorry darling I cannot be the perfect daughter in law. I tried hard ( may be not so hard) but I tired being hypocrite . Sometimes i felt you neglected me , my feeling and my opinion when it comes with your mother wish. This reminds me of the Irish proverb, " A man loves his sweetheart the most, his wife the best, but his mother the longest. "

We're leaving for vacation tomorrow. I hope we'll have a great time together and pretty sure tonite we gonna have a date- maintenance, reminder and pre-emptive spanking is waiting for me..Horray!

Am I demanding? Part 1

"You're demanding , "

"Such as? "


"New kitchen"

I'd been asking that since we're in Canada."

"Prada? "

"every woman should have at least one ( in my case 2) designer handbags

'Vacation every 6 months ? "

"Hem, what's wrong with it? We need holiday, just for us. ( you make a trip to your parents every month and it took 9 hours to reach there! ) "

"Do you know how much we spend every months?

ops... he's home now. later ...

Blogging again?

This is a brand new blog actually. I though I should start a new blog, chapter n may be life?

When I first blogging about DD or TTWD, I received lots of judgements from those who claims she so call expert n senior in DD. I like to play with graphic n pictures, n one of the reader told me that I'm not fit in this life style because I'm more to BDSM. Hello! You cannot just judging people like that ok. Just because I put the photo of kneeling woman and writing 'submission' entry, you're labeling me BDSM? I was new in TTWD and still learning and Google-ing . I still remember my first reference was LDD book . ( Loving Domestic Discipline by Mr LDD). The LDD blog had shut down n those who wonder what is LDD, I still have the soft copt of that book. You know where to find me :))

What I'm trying to say, we cannot simply judging people from her/his writing. I don't think we able to write n explain in details everything in our entry. Do ask if you want to know more but don't simply judging and making assumption. Example, some people though spanking using hanger is cruel, some think caning is very harsh n others would think daily maintainence is too much . I think it depends on us, how we handle and take it. During my early DD days, my husband spank me twice, early in the morning n after he back from work for maintenance . ( that's not includes punishment, pr- emptive n disobedient spanking, ok ) It gets tiring because I kept repeat the same mistakes and he getting frustrating because he thought I just want spanking and purposely cross the line to get spank. Then we stop daily maintenance , we used reminder which can take anytime when he think I need and I can nicely asked him if I need it. So that's what we do now.


"Darling, can I ask something? "

"Now what?

"Err.. I need some reminder to keep back in track , "Gulp... can't believe I'm actually asking this.

"I'm glad you asking it, instead of provoking and brat -ing to me, "

20 strokes with canes, and I shall be good for a week.. hope so :))

So what do you think?20 strokes is just nothing to me, as I had an iron butt like my husband said. It just to remind whose the boss in the house and my duty as a wife n mother. That''s it. And I usually submit it well. It works well with me, so far.

my kitchen story

Last nite, I was doing dishes. Then I realized my kitchen is not so called "Martha Stewart" is kitchen. Darling husband promise to renovate a new kitchen for me next year, but last few days, he told me he could''t do it because he want to buy a piece of land from his mother. ( his mother ask, or should I said pushed him to do so because she desperately needs money; she didnt wnat to sell to other person.) To make it short, I'm not happy with his says and felt a bit depression looking at my unfinished kitchen.

We were in bed, and the kids were fall sleep.

"What is your problem

I want a new kitchen, blablablablablanlabla.. ( pouting) ""

"You need to learn to be more gratitude ,

You're selfish! "

Ok, lets go downstairs now .

Ï don't want to !

I let he going down first, 5 minutes later I followed him. We talked n talk, provoking each other.
Its really tense, there's no air to breathe. Finally

"Ok, I'' ll do your kitchen end of this year. But we cannot go to Boston next year,

"Boston? "But u didn't say that earlier !"

"I 'm planning to do my post doctorate there ,

""I don't want new kitchen, I just want to get out from this place n go to Boston "

He smiled. "Do you realize where are you from? "

"I know but I don't like here. I never gonna fit living here. ( especially with your family.. huhuhuhu)"

To make is short, we agreed to hold the kitchen project after back from Boston, which is still in planning. He need to get a place there and once confirmed.. bye-bye XXXXXX. Can't wait to start new life at new place. Gosh, how much I hate this place.

"You know what you're doing tonite, "he asked me, in strict n firm voice,

"Err.. I dont know.. may be á little provoking ..

"Disrespecting me and ignoring our son. You know what S told me? He said I done nothing, why mummy didn't want to talk with me?

Oh God, now I'm being selfishto my own kids. I just a bit upset n couldn't say any words to anobody. I'm so frustrated with my husband and I ignored him.Mummy is very sorry dear, I'll promise I won't treat like that again...

Of course I received the caning in two set. First is horrible ; I didn't submit and he kind a bit angry with me so I got the full strokes. The second one I calm down, and it more gentle then the first one. It bring me a peace of mind later. Everything is settle n forgiven. I hope so.

Conclusion?
When we were in Canada, we 're by ourselves only; no family n relatives. But now we're in back home, everything is change. How I'm going to say this? Let just say I'm not a good/favorite daughter in law, ok?

Introduction

My name is Angelin. I'm a wife n a mother of two. We lived in TTWD almost 4 years. I'm an average and normal person like others. It just sometime I need to be corrected by my husband. He is very loving and charming . We used to be a romantic couple in the perfect marriage during our early TTWD days. Now? I don't know. Life in TTWD is perfect except one; in real life we have family and friends. A lots of sacrifice had to make. I'm not truly happy with it. So this is my stories n my journey.....